It all started during COVID lockdown. I was 30 and had to move back in with my parents for the first time since I was 22 due to financial and work issues. My younger cousin (19 at the time) on my mom's side and me always got along since we were the black sheep ginger haired weirdos of our very traditional, uptight families. Every now and then we had hung out and had some beers or smoked. Her family lives only a few blocks away from my parents and during lockdown we started texting and talking more and shared our experience of how much it sucked being cooped up in the house with our crazy families. We got closer through the experience and being older I gave her a lot of advice on how to deal with their Italian short tempers. We weren't allowed to hang with our friends which was always our way away from the house so besides texting we also started going on walks or I would pick her up to just talk and smoke some cigs.

As we got more comfortable we would talk about all sorts of things that we connected on and it didn't take long for us to start talking about people we dated or hooked up with. Also didn't take long to realize we both led very sexually open lives, sharing conversations she would have with guys and mine with girls both past and present and ask opinions and advice. To cut to the chase eventually we'd share more specific details and I could tell she was a freak like me. We started sending selfies and she would like to ask me about outfits she wore before she snuck out with a guy. She even started feeling comfortable enough to start sending me pics of new underwear and bras asking my opinions as we grew very comfortable with sharing more. I told her my kinks and how I was always into filming videos with girls I was with as long as the girl was down to also and my cousin thought it was hot which made her want to film herself as well. It escalated when she one day randomly texted me that she tried the best vibrator she ever used and filmed herself as a guy her age used it on her. It was very unexpected but I of course watched it and got really turned on by it. Told her how hot it was and now that the ice was broken I showed her some of my videos and at first it just seemed like we had reached a new level of being open with each other sending each other nudes asking if they were a good one to send others. At first I just took it that she was finally coming into her own and accepting she was freaky and I think hearing my crazy stories opened her up to new things. These were few and far between and wasn't exactly sexting yet, just sharing and talking freely about our experiences.

When we hung out or went for walks in person everything was still very platonic though and there was no sense that either of us were trying to hook up. One night she called me after having a fight with her father and asked if I could pick her up and smoke some weed because she didn't want to be at the house with him pissed off like that. So I picked her up as usual and we parked the car in a secluded parking lot and smoked a joint like usual. She was venting to me about what happened. The conversation moved on and we were bullshitting and she started talking about how sitting and laying in the house all day with COVID was messing up her back lately telling me she had so many knots. She then jokingly said "I bet you give good massages, please help me get this knots out." I replied sarcastically "if you want a massage just ask lol." I was in the driver's seat and she was in the passenger and I told her to turn her back towards me and I started giving her a massage as she directed me to the knots. We continued talking while I massaged her back, she gave the occasional moan of relief as my big hands on her tiny back were digging into the right spots. She started talking about how being stuck in the house has made her not want to wear bras anymore when going out because they bothered her a lot and how her friend never does. This is where it took a wild turn. As she went on about no bras she talked about how she's still young and wanted her small perky tits to stay perky and bras would ruin that. I agreed and told her that I've never heard any of my female friends say they like wearing bras and that they're technically not good for you and as I'm massaging her she was like yeah and look feel them as she grabbed and moved my hands from behind her back around and places them on her tits saying "see I want them to stay like this". I was completely taken off guard but can't say it didn't turn me on like crazy. I then took them off immediately cuz I felt nervous and didn't wanna overstep bounds but those perky little 19 year old tits were mind-blowing to feel even outside of the shirt. Lockdown had me in a dry spell so I was out of sex for a bit that made my heart sink. I then went back to massage her back and suggested that we should go in the back seat so she could lay on her stomach and I could give a massage easier and she agreed without question so we got out moved the seats up and got in the back. Now instead of laying on the seat as I got in she and laid her body over my legs on her stomach in pretty much an over the lap spanking position as she asked "is this okay it'll be easier I feel like." I did not object as her tight body laid perfectly over my lap I continued massaging and talking.

She started moaning and being more vocal about the massage and how it was better now and I could not help but look at her perfect ass right in front of me in the yoga sweatpants she was wearing while she couldn't see me staring. Idk if I was feeling bold or just not paying attention but I started massaging lower towards her lower back down to pretty much where her back just met her ass. While massaging there every now and then I would partially get the top of her ass making it seem like i wasn't meaning to. Said "sorry if get your butt a little just trying to get the lower back" To which she replied "that's okay you can massage my butt too if you want, I love me a good booty massage." To which I immediately started massaging her ass getting deep in the tissue of her cheeks. She went quiet as I did this for a few minutes with the occasional moving back and forth to her back so she didn't think I was creepily overindulging on her ass. Her moans of relief suddenly started to sound like heavy breathing and a little bit of squirming with a moan here and there and the freak in me was starting to get really turned on which was starting to make my dick hard naturally and I got nervous cuz her stomach was pressed up on that area and knew there was no way she wasn't gonna start to feel it. Her moans started a bit more sexual and she laughed and said, "sorry, it feels really good." And I said don't worry it's all good just tell me if you want me to stop to which she said "no way keep going". My dick was just getting harder til it was pressing on her stomach and there was no way she didn't feel it.

Feeling incredibly turned on I started to feel more comfortable rubbing her butt and body that I once again got risky in my horniness and would rub in a sliding lotion to the bottom of her ass just slightly grazing under enough to feel her pussy every now and thats when I started to notice it felt quite warm and damp so with each rotation in the tub I went from her ass checks to her pussy and now her moans started sound a little more sexual. But she didn't object or say a word as it was happening so I eventually just started rubbing her pussy on the outside of her pants as she let out a "holy fuck that feels so good" so I asked her if she was okay with me doing that and she said yeah of course it feels nice (I was still being careful at this point even though she was openly inviting me). Once her moans got louder I made a joke saying you know lemme pull down these pants so I can rub your ass and thighs better and in her heavy breathing said okay. So I pulled down her pants and saw her sweet smooth pale ass for the first time and rubbed away and moved my hand to her pussy which was absolutely soaking wet and I couldn't believe any of it was happening but had my way as I just rubbed the outside and the clit a little bit and she began letting out huge moans. After some rubbing I went for it and stuck a finger in her tight pussy and she let out a huge gasping moan as I began to slide my finger in and out slowly. She was squirming her whole body on top of me as she felt my now rock hard cock on her stomach. She then got up slightly to adjust and I pulled her face to mine as she did and began making out with her while still fingering her.

I said one last time to her "are you sure youre okay with this" and she replied "as long as you are I am" and we continued making out as she unzipped my pants and put her hand down it to feel my hard cock and she started stroking it downward. She the. Sat up laid on her back slid her pants down to her shins and widened her legs as I followed her on top of her and began making out with her more. I began kissing her down her face and neck nice and slow all the way down to her tits and began licking and sucking them which drove her absolutely insane. I eventually went down all the way to her sweet wet pussy and began kissing it and eating her out and I could already tell that she was in absolute ecstacy. Reaching her hand down to feel my cock again she whispered "soooo big". (She's not wrong I have been told by many that it's large but I could tell her inexperienced 19 year old self had never felt a grown 30 year old man with a cock that big). We kept fooling around for a while more and I swear I could have exploded, it was the hottest experience ever. Eventually I was at a point where I was teasing to her pussy sliding the shaft of my cock up and down and I asked her "do you want me to fuck you baby" and she was hesitant saying "yes... No... Idk should we?" And I replied "well I won't lie I don't have any condoms, didn' expect this lol." Which made her laugh and snap out of it and she said "maybe we shouldn't then" and she sat up and I said "okay no need I can eat your pussy more" and I started kissing on her neck again for a few seconds. Then she said "maybe we should, is there somewhere we can buy them?" I said yeah 711 is up the block we can run in really fast. At this point I was nothing but lustful eyes and needed to fuck her and feel the taboo feeling of fucking my sexy ginger little cousin.

She agreed and I slipped my pants on she stayed in the back I drove over to 711 bought them got in she made out with me again as I walked back in and I drove like a madman back to the spot jumped in the back seat licked her pussy some more to get it wetter and ready to take me. I put in the condom, she was in missionary I looked in her eyes and very slowly started to line up my cock inside her and as I just got the head in she gasped and yelled slow slow slow please. She was so tight, and I had to be slower than I've ever been with anyone as she tried to take a cock my size for the first time. Eventually it slid in and from that moment on we had our first secret backseat sex and everything about how wrong it was felt so fucking good to us.

For the remainder of that year and a half we were each other's dirty secret. We would try to sneak off when we can.