Both my mom and I are Chinese. After her divorce, my mom married my stepdad who is a white American man, Ever since the first time I saw him I’ve been attracted to my stepdad. He’s 6 feet tall, with dark blue eyes and ruggedly handsome. Somehow I’m really attracted to older white guys. I guess like mother like daughter. My step dad is almost 50 years old but he is very masculine and has a lot of sexual stamina.

We live in an apartment and the walls are thin. Almost every night I heard my mom being fucked to the seventh heaven and I’ve been masturbating listening to my stepdad fucking my mom ever since they moved in together. The sex was very loud, with lots of spanking and sometimes even screaming.

The other day I didn’t want to just listen so I tiptoed to my parent’s bedroom. Their bedroom door wasn’t fully closed! And so I was able to see the silhouettes of their figures entwinted in bed and OMG I came SO HARD watching my mom getting fucked! She was completely lifted off the bed, it looked almost as if she was being impaled on a pillar. Her legs were spread wide and my step dad was asking her if “you enjoyed getting your asshole fucked?”

Not only was my stepdad fucking my mom’s pussy. He was fucking her asshole too! Now all of a sudden I understood why the sex was so loud. And my mom was saying “Yes daddy! Fill my asshole with cum.” She was calling my stepdad “daddy”!

I started to touch myself right there by the door and all day afterward all I could think about is how much I want to have my ass pounded senselessly by my stepdad until I’m pumped full and dripping his cum!

I was very conflicted by my sexual feelings to my stepdad, and to my horror, I think my mom started to notice my jealousy toward her. I always sit next to my stepdad, tug on his arms, play with him when we go out to eat, despite the fact that he is not my biological dad.

I tried to my hide my feelings by sleeping around with other men, and I always sought out men who looked like my stepdad, tall, mascular, older, white American men. But even as I was being fucked by those other men, I kept on thinking about being fucked by my stepdad.

The fact that HE is my stepdad turns me on even more, but I know how wrong this is, and I know my mom probably would never forgive me if he found out.

I honestly don't know what to do now. I want to send nudes to my stepdad, I want him to know how much I want him, I want him to catch me masturbate in my room when he accidentally walks in on me, I need to do something and this delirious desire is burning me.